I’ve had mixed feelings about Girly Muse. You know I’m honest, so I can’t stop being now. When people ask why I’m not posting on here anymore, I kind of hem and haw. I’ve been busy with other writing projects, which is true, but here’s the real answer…
All I can think of when I come on here is my mom. She loved this blog, was my number one fan, and was so sad when I stopped the daily posts. It was a way of her keeping up with what was going on in my life. She loved the pictures of the kids, but she also got a kick out of my stories, thought what I said mattered, and told me so.
I haven’t had any desire to come on here without her and I’m reminded often of how she was after her parents died. She was in her early thirties and lost her parents within eleven months of each other. Her whole life, and especially in the years before they died, she loved to draw and paint. My favorite was a Holly Hobbie drawing she made for my room. I still have it and love it. When they passed away, she said she just couldn’t bring herself to do it anymore. It hurt too much.
I wish she had. I think it would have helped. But I get the reasons why she couldn’t.
It was nearly 35 years before she painted again. She was still very skilled. I have those paintings too, and I cherish them.
Writing IS therapeutic for me, and I haven’t and won’t ever stop, but I don’t know what I’ll do with this space. Maybe just leave it. It’s nice the way it is. 🙂 Or come back occasionally. I hate to be mopey face, but that’s honestly all that comes out when I open this page. So for now, at least, I’m still on a little sabbatical. I do post pictures or quotes occasionally on the Facebook Girly Muse page—it’s easier. I mostly wrote today to say thank you to those who still mention this blog and ask when I’m coming back. It means a lot that you care.